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Moments earlier, I published this week’s episode of my podcast. The last two episodes ( and probably the next two) are the most confusing episodes you’ve probably heard from me.
And I know exactly why.
I am going through a lot. Since November when I decided to have more structure around my general direction, I have had to rethink and reconsider many things and especially, be more willing to experiment for long stretches of time knowing that any relevant results could take months (or years) to emerge.
The current agreement I have with myself when it comes to the podcast is that every Tuesday, I will put something out. For now, I know, 100%, that what I am putting out doesn’t make much sense to someone who is listening for the first time.
That’s where you come in.
If you’re reading this, you may have an idea of what I do; writing, video, audio, poetry, etc. I need your help. Can you listen to the last episode and respond either to this email or under SoundCloud, with your response to my request in the episode?
I could make the podcast about immigration. I find myself in an interesting position since I moved to the US, and no matter how I try to escape or avoid it, I am constantly absorbing the differences between the US and Cameroon. Nearly everything triggers a memory or some thought pattern.
I still convert to FCFA to this day when making purchases.
Thing is, immigration is an overarching theme. Without being an immigrant, I am still a lot of things.
It’s just a lens through which I see the world, it’s not the world.
I could make the podcast about relationships. If you read me enough, you know how important my marriage is and how much I am learning each day on being a better partner. I am also doubling down on being a better friend, worker, partner, sibling. Relationships are a big deal for me—and they’re probably the reason why I chose the major I am now studying in college ( I mentioned the major in the episode).
But if you take away all the relationships in my life, what do I become?
I could make the podcast about self-improvement. I am a self-improvement nerd and I love self-improvement books. This might be the first time I am saying it out loud ( or writing it, lol) and it feels great! I could talk about what I am reading, how I am learning and applying these in my life.
As you can see, I can make the podcast about any of these three or… I can make it about these three. Because there are many other aspects of life that aren’t covered by these. I can’t have a podcast this random and expect it to add have an impact.
I need to know what I can bring to your table. If that means sacrificing one or two of these, I would have to consider it. It that means structuring the podcast to make it more coherent on the chosen themes, I will have to consider it.
What I can’t consider is to just let it fly like this, for this long.
However, I am also aware that you could read this and not respond. Life happens. You have a lot on your plate and I respect that. So, if you can’t give me your take on this confusing realm I bring to your doorstep, that’s okay too.
I’ll just have to figure it out. And in all honesty, I enjoy this part of life now even more: not knowing and trying.
I feel like a child again.
Here are some links to keep you busy until our next chat ( I’ll be doing this now at the end of each of these, just as a reward for reading till the end :D )
YouTube Channel I recommend this week: Do You Need a YouTube Channel Niche?
by my friend Eric Wen
An article I wrote that you haven’t read: 5 Lessons From My Father on Medium.com (Open this link on Desktop, not mobile)
An Anime that got me crying multiple times: Vinland Saga. I finished the first season on Amazon Prime and I have no idea if/when there'll be a second season. Watch this review by my favorite Anime YouTuber. You can also catch the first episode here for free on YouTube (yes, it’s subbed. You’re welcome.)
A did a YouTube Live Test Today: You can watch me fumble here. Subscribe to my channel while you’re at it. Yeah?