How often do you catch yourself wondering if you’re on the right path? I don’t mean here that you doubt the path you’re on.
No. Just a curious questioning— an innocent inquiry into your actions.
You could say that you should not have these thoughts if you believe in a higher power — that asking such questions is akin to doubting God Himself.
I wonder if that’s how He would consider it. Then again, He will probably never spell it out in a Holy Blog Post or Book for me to read and be like:
“Ha! See? God has confirmed my doubts!”
Between you and me, I think it’s a relevant question. I think we should ask this more because it’s easy to forget why we start things or where we’re headed.
Think about it. How often do we even think about our own deaths? We all know we will die. You have probably lost someone dear to you. It’s on the list of things you can’t doubt: your physical body will one day run its course and you will become food for the earth.
Yet, when I ask the question : “Am I on the right path?”, it’s almost as though all my thoughts are geared towards accomplishment, accolades, “the things of the world”.
But I love to catch myself in that place. I’m training myself to ask it more.
I don’t think worldly success is meaningless. I don’t also think it’s all that matters.
But refusing to acknowledge that part of me that needs to be reminded of the point of this whole journey isn’t fair.
I mean...if you ever catch yourself asking: is this friend worth my time? Is this relationship worth it? Is this job worth it? Should I really move to another town? Should I go to college? Should I have children? Get married?
A lot of these questions show how much choice we have on this “path”.
The direction we take can come from a place of careful consideration.
It can be exhausting to be constantly making these choices. Yet, without making the “right” foundational choices, we can very surely steer off the “right path”.
That path, really, is one of those foundational choices. And often, we don’t realize how much choices we had until it’s taken away.
Until the person we love dies. Or we find out we’re unable to have children. Or we get into an accident. Or we lose our sole source of income.
The people who die don’t come back to tell us about heaven or hell. How we live then, in anticipation, is one of those foundational choices.
That’s what I wanted to share with you today:
Consider your path and check-in regularly to see if you’re on it.
It’s within your power to question the life around you. You can decide if you’re no longer the person you were and decide where you want to go, and who you want to be.
Easy? Probably not. Worth it? Definitely.
Consider the alternative. A life led by whims, no conscious thought, no preparation for the future or for death. No meaning to work towards. No chosen purpose to put your life into.
God may not send me an email with my life’s direction, but He gave me freewill to figure that out.
The least I can do is keep trying.
P.S
It’s been a while. After visits at the hospital and usual immigration related issues, I can comfortably say that you’ll be getting one of these every Monday. I don’t like apologies when they’re not backed by actions. I’m sorry I haven’t sent this newsletter for the past few weeks. Thank you for being here. Talk to you soon.
P.P.S
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